Sunday, September 19, 2010


If I really have the memory span of a fish, I can live a new life every few seconds. I get to start over again and again. I don't get bored because I never realise that I'm repeating. But really, the irony is...

I despise repeating myself.

I hate my life being boring.

Hence, I'm constantly creating new memories.

I don't want to be reminded of my past.

I just wish to be a happy fish.

I can't relive the past.

Simply because I'm unrepeatable.

the shadow of my own,

is not something I can mirror on.

It is like an art,

where the artist waves her brush

the drawing that merges every part

in the middle of a midnight hush.

In magic she believes,

and how the rain actually relieves.

It was not the shadow that she fear,

For she would not give it a tear.

"You are unrepeatable. There is a magic about you that is all your own..." - D.M. Dellinger

Friday, September 17, 2010

From CEO under 30. A reminder for myself...

1. Your room for improvement is always your biggest room — so spend some time filling it up.

2. How do you combat inexperience? Over preparation.

3. There is never a substitute for enthusiasm: not skill, not talent, not expertise– the person with enthusiasm always wins.

4. In ever adversity, there lies a seed of equal or greater benefit.

5. Five years from now, your future will be most determined by the books you read and the people you associated with.

6. Many of the rewards in life come when you are out there on the extra mile.

7. You have to have some principles that you can believe in and that you won’t waver from.

8. Never forget where you came from…and you helped you get there.

9. There is no luck in success. Success is where opportunity and preparation meet.

10. Observe what the masses of people do, and then do the opposite.

People need to be motivated. If it's not innate, pick it up. Have to admit that's what I'm doing. I might not be made, but I'm becoming...

my ideal self... this is a promise I made to myself. I must realise my self... and not live in the shadows anymore...

like said, when there is shadow, there is LIGHT.

Friday, September 03, 2010

Wild Child switch Turned ON

ENFPs have what some call a "silly switch." They can be intellectual, serious, all business for a while, but whenever they get the chance, they flip that switch and become CAPTAIN WILDCHILD, the scourge of the swimming pool, ticklers par excellence. Som etimes they may even appear intoxicated when the "switch" is flipped.

I think I do enjoy doing things without sequence. It's really hard to get things done especially meeting deadlines but that's just how I work best. Deadlines simply kill my ability to create new and evolutionary ideas. If I have to balance, the next thing I need to learn tis to be disciplined. Period.

Thursday, September 02, 2010

To start off with, we might have to get our hands dirty...

Adam Ferguson believes that facing difficult moments honestly — without emotionally separating himself from the situation at hand — yields more engaging photographs.

Easy to say? He covers war.

“The moment I become unaffected or unable to feel,” Mr. Ferguson said, “it would be time to go and do something else with my life. The war would have got me.”

“Then all of a sudden I am recording an event that makes these guys look bad,” he continued. “You have a sense of loyalty to them, and you have to reconcile that in relation to your integrity as a journalist.

“As much as it is my job to engage emotionally, it’s also my job to record history, so I can’t break down and cry,” he said. “I have to work and contain my tears. And the more one holds on to their tears, the harder they become to let go.”

“Even though war is tragic,” he said, “it is inherently exciting. Normal life can be banal. After war, engaging with stories that require you to rekindle yourself emotionally, stories that make you laugh and cry, is — I believe — important to maintaining a balance.”

“As a young photographer,” he said, “it’s easy to be filled with ambition and naively forget that what you experience stays with you. If you go to war, it will change you. And it wouldn’t be normal if it didn’t.”

I've always think that to be an outstanding person, we have to be in we have to go as far as to places which "normal" people won't go. In simpler terms, we gotta get out of our comfort zone, constantly stimulate ourselves to the realise our greater potential. We never know where it ends. And it'd probably be bottomless. I admire this young Australian photographer who is only 32 years old. He inspires me. And I feel like stepping out of my comfort zone is a calling... I feel like I can't just live a normal life anymore... I feel like I need to do something which they would call me crazy but I won't give a d*mn when I decide to go.

I was thinking abt how ppl seem to read the Bible a whole lot more as they get older; then it dawned on me - they're cramming for their final exam.
George Carlin
This is another special personality that I have just got to know. He's good in what he does although I don't agree to everything he says and his over-usage of "bullsh*t". Whatever. It's his style. I just like the fact that he's mean and frank which is sometimes how reality is.
Inside every cynical person, there is a disappointed idealist.
George Carlin
I guess that's his projection. If it were, it fits perfectly like a puzzle.

Between dreams and reality. This dilemma that might tear me apart. We live life once, what are we gona do with it?
I don't know how long I have...I mean nothing in this life is solely owned or permanent. How can I create something that is exclusively mine? The only way would be making changes and make sure the changes are significant to be written in history.
How far am I willing to go? I don't know yet. We shall see how destiny unfolds...

Tonight, I'm in the adventurer's mode. The archetype just come out to play.

Jack London Credo quoted by Irving Shepard

I would rather be ashes than dust!
I would rather that my spark should burn out in a brilliant blaze than it should be stifled by dry-rot.
I would rather be a superb meteor, every atom of me in magnificent glow, than a sleepy and permanent planet.
The function of man is to live, not to exist.
I shall not waste my days trying to prolong them.
I shall use my time.

I just find that he (Jack London) is an interesting writer. My told me that the fortune teller once told me that I'll be building my career on writing. I don't know what my destiny will be but writing has always been something I enjoy doing. There are too much information out there and I hope that I can do some FREE FLOW writing, not something too generic or commercial.
London is definitely not my first idol. The person who made the greatest impression on me when I was young is Charles Dickens. I cried when I read his biography which portrays how much hardship he has been through. His life experiences has great influences on his work which are projections of his own life. That is fascinating!

Another classical writer I adore is Hans Christian Andersen, the infamous Danish Fairy Tale writer. I used to love his stories more than anyone else's. Fairy tales leave space for us to imagine. They make us believe in possibilities. And I have come to accept myself for being dreamy after some time when I got lost in between, to get into the realistic side of living. If I would, I rather die of pursuing my dreams than to live a normal life and die without any different accomplishments in life.

That ignites the adventurer archetype in myself which I'm nurturing to set out a spiritual journey of self-discovery which I promise myself before I actually settle down and start a "normal' adult life (i.e. get a stable job, relationship, buy a house and contribute to the society and so on).

I'm gona let my spirits free! And live out the best in me. It's yet to happen but it shall happen!