(more than) Me,Myself & I

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It’s been centuries since I last blogged. I kinda forget how to start a post. Last time was the connection problem, so I gave up. After that I excused myself for having too little time. Like usual, I wasn’t busy after all, just lazy.
I’ll blog about today, the second day I go for the MSSM Rugby competition duty at TUDM (nearby the Kuching International Airport). It is a beautiful place on the hill. You can see the mini scale of Kuching from its field and hear the planes’ engines roaring from time to time. What a sight to be seen. Duty was like standing there and talking to the others, bet which team wins, and fooling around. Rugby is a tough sports. Put it in a way that it is when you can fight “legally” for the sake of an oval ball. Rugby players are commonly huge. I helped to carry one on the stretcher today. You won’t know how heavy the players are until you really experience their weight yourselves.

Flashing back, I took part in a Chinese singing competition last Saturday. I partnered
Clara and we sang Jolin’s “Dao Dai”. It was lot of fun. We went there (SMK Petra Jaya) and enjoyed ourselves because no one knows us. We thought it was some small deal until the participants proved us wrong. Unable to do anything at the last minute, we dragged ourselves and the stools (yea, we brought our private stools in fact,they were from Ikea)
You may think, how “drama” we were but you should look at our clothing. We’re so decent compared to the others. They really dressed up like “stars”. There was even a young boy (meaning no masculine bodyline) wearing a see-through suit. How disgusting!
Today, I’m a little blue. I don’t know why. I always feel blue when it rains. It’s lonesome. It’s pathetic. I had a tonne of homework to finish but my brain won’t cooperate. That’s why I’m here to blog. I’ve been neglecting my feelings for such long a time…gosh…till I’m so numb now. I was thinking of what would become of me in the future even though it’s a stupid thing to think of, really. I was filled with fear and uncertainty. I feel like taking Bio in doesn’t suit me that much. I started to think about stuff and ended up with a hollow heart. Oh dear, now I can only come to my blog. I don’t really know how to express myself to a real person these days duh~

posted by Shan @ 12:22 AM